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Thursday, January 10th, 2008
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9:59 am - you want the good news or the bad news?
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OK well start with the good news, cos well it did make me a litte bit smiley to begin with... but even before i start i just want to say that my little kitty Eddie, is sitting on the window sill , looking out at the rain that dribbling off the gutters, and he looks intent to catch it LOL...
OK this good news... well we have been searching for an apartment closer to my work and cheaper.. cos the living costs over here are phenom.... but anywhose i found a nice apartment and applied and we thought we wouldnt get it... but we did .. yay
now the bad news... ok we calculated that bond, first months rent and credit checks for marc and myself at £860 , which we could just .. JUST scrape together... now.. the landlord has accepted our application on the terms that our credit checks and our guarantor checks out + £30, and since we have a cat that he initially said was fine, that we should pay a cat bond + £250
Initial calculations £860
HIDDEN SUPRISE COSTS £280
My Luck £ priceless
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| Sunday, December 30th, 2007
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7:30 pm - at the end of the day
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it seems i am tired again, drained, meh... went into the studio, and got some practice in... my skills are coming along, of course i need more practice, then spent the afternoon drivin furiously to IKEA .. although any trip to ikea should be a wonderous and joyous experience, however the closest IKEA was in warrington a good hour drive away and closed at 5pm today.. it was 330 when we left.. with no idea how to get there and a list of things to get for the studio.. arrgghh talk about head fuck..
but.. im tired now and can't be bothered
ick.. i feel crap
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11:08 am - hello journal long time no... whatever
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Its been a long time since i did anything on here...i believe that one must have a life enable to write about it, hence the long time no whatevers....My life has always been rather solitary, going through phases of wanting more than quickly losing interest, never really seeming to find my feet, and through this constant limbo-esque state in which i find myself existing, i neglect all that matters to me and i neglect myself.
Deep within me i know that i am capable of more than what I have become, but somehow lack the vital drive to exceed past the now and add another failure notch to my belt, As it is, I am following, in a suprisingly reluctant fashion, a dream of mine, I have travelled to the UK and taken on a tattoo apprenticeship, with the knowing that i could be great at this trade, but my mind leaves me in constant doubt of my own mental stamina and ability, I second guess my every action and find myself although loving what i do, questioning wether i really want to do it, and I do, but then again i dont....my complacency overrides any real drive, for fear of failure and scorn..
I am living tough at the moment, everything ever seen about tattoo apprenticeships has been true, it is a trying struggle and you are the lowest of all life on the food chain...I have never been so low and have always expected respect of sorts..we apprentices do not get paid because from a business sense, there is nothing in the business i can do, wothout inking that can earn money.. so until i am proficient, i cannot earn a crust.
What amrc earns is not enough to cover what we require to live and pay rent, although he earns twice the minimum wage here, and works a 60 hour week for it...so we resign to the fact that we must find a cheaper apartment.. however, even if we do, we still need to find £600 to pay the bond and first month.. which seems like an impossible task, so we are stuck and .. i am finding it hard not to enter into the downward spiral yet again. It is my fault we are here and destitute, and selfish of me to want to be here to gain this trade...while he works so hard to support it with no real rewards of his own...
im not a religeous person persay.. but i hope and pray for a miracle or some sort of kindness that makes things a little easier for us, as hopless as i am , i am also proud, and do not wish to return home with my tail between my legs.. a failure....no money, no trade, another wasted time in my life and another stupid decision....
help, for i fear i am falling...
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| Tuesday, July 24th, 2007
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9:55 pm - um.. i think i just slid off my chair....
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| Friday, July 20th, 2007
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9:38 am - 10 things on my mind today....
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1-I will be in the UK in ten days and i am excited
2-I love Doctor Who (new series') and think that anyone with the means should download them and watch them
3-I thought the harry potter movie was a disappointment and it makes me laugh to think that their are 'hardcore fans' that will defend its honour, and profess to love it regardless.. yeah its a movie...and a book.. a good written book...
4-I want to buy a new pair of pants today, and i need to re-go through my suitcase and see what are 'keepers'...i have 10ish boxes to be sent over to our new apartment when we find it...
5-throughout my life, i have always seemed to have friends that after a while get caught up with something else and just dont call anymore, and I hardly see them again...and i wasted all my time running around after them and sending messages and trying to be involved...but this time i have decided, FUCK IT...im not going to run around hunting people to be friends( i have already done it a few time to a couple of people, tried to get in contact, but i have been quite obviously ignored), either you think enough of me to contact ME, or your not my friend, im tired of being the 'flavour of the month' then chucked out just as easily..my veiw is.. for everyone (meaning that there is a handful of people) whom i have had contact with in some form, if you are obviously on your computer everyday, journalling, myspacing, blogging, selling your wares, you cant get bent out of shape when i fuck off , cos you never emailed me... I mean it isnt hard and it doesnt take more than a minute... if the excuse is you have been 'busy', had 'no time'.. I say fuck you...cos it aint that hard...but keep up the blogging and journalling.. cos it must take at least half an hour to make sure your posts sound cool...
6-my favourite song at the moment is "I cant decide" by the Scissor sisters (thankyou dr who)
7-my sleeve tat is almost healed and i have to go in and see steff and get him to bust a little bit more colour in it
8.. you know what... i cant be bothered putting 10 things down.. cos i need to go to the toilet and its morning... my stomach is rumbling for foodage,,,,
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| Sunday, July 15th, 2007
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10:14 pm - my brother got married on saturday and guess who was there.....dr who??.
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6:19 pm
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there is speculation around David Tennants contract being up at the end of season 4 of Dr Who.. tell me it isnt so..NOOoooooo.... not only that.. i am slightly grrrrr around the subject of Martha Jones' departure and reappearance halfway through S4.. also the doctor having a different companion for all 13 eps..+ martha for 6ish.. I am a Martha fan,,,, Rose tyler... yeah she was great, and there is also specualtion as the wether she will be reuinited with the doctor after being trapped on a parallel world... but the new companion... who is it... well remember the Runaway bride.. christmas special... yeah the bride.. I dont like her... she's crap and im unhappy about it LOL... however Martha will be starring in 3 episodes or Torchwood at the start of S2...before returning to the doctor.. but it is alluded to that they will be playing the martha unrequited love for the doctor/doctor pining after rose angle...... but 3 people in the TARDIS...i know its bigger on the inside... but its a little crampo for me..
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| Friday, July 13th, 2007
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11:49 pm
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I just saw Harry Potter and the order of the Pheonix... and al i can say is WHAT THE FUCK... i dont know what else to say... ANNIE.. have you seen it??? Im kinda confused, bewildered, disappointed... hrrmm
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10:39 am
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I got my half sleeve finished yesterday 11am till 5pm sitting....i am good!! LOL
it goes from the very top of my shoulder down to the bend of my elbow and almost wraps the whole arm.. yes even the underside. we extended and gave another dimension to the clouds in the back ground so i really dont have a lot of skin left undermy arm to cover.. and got some more work done on my inner elbow which goes down approx 1/3 the length of my forearm... full sleeve almost done...
got alot of grey wash put in, so my arm looks like a big love bite, cos the colour isnt opaque enough to cover the bruising as it normally would will full mix inks, so i am not taking any photos till the swelling goes down and the redness goes... but boy it is sore LOL and looks HOT
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| Wednesday, July 11th, 2007
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10:33 am - tattoos, tired, tantrums,
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19 days to go and ill be on a plane to Blackpool.... so very happy about this, MY boss and his wife are fantastic, he told me I have a studio shirt with my name on it (we ll literally not my name but the shops name, but its just put aside for me ,,, LOL) and I have been added to the studios artists profiles in which i am most pleased... yes most pleased :)
tomorrow i get me sleeve finished at 5 star tattoo.. and get an addition to my skull band... so glad im getting that finished, i wouldnt like anyone else working on it.. its Steff's peice and he can finish it.. s'gonna be sore for a few... and i have my brothers wedding to attend on Saturday, which is gonna be fun.. just hope um doest slap me on the arm like she did last tie i got work done.., that night we are supposed to be staying in t he hotel near the venue, then my brothers boss is taking us all (just the youngsters LOL) out on his cruise boat....this guy is LOADED!!! and a Freemason.. how very intriguing :)
they did the final inspection yesterday and notified the settlement agent.. which meand the only thing left to do is the money transfers,, but our mortgage broker KEYSTART..keeps hounding us for money.. and usually you dont have to pay your mortgage in the settlement phase cos it all gets worked out, so the 6 weeks prior your ok.. but nooooooooo this assface of a guy keeps ringing us and bullying us into paying....we didnt pay last week and we have unplugged out home phone today so he cant call....I mean settlement is the 25th, we have 13ish days..ooooerrr whats he gonna do.. take legal action... GO FOR IT YOU CUM GUZZLING FUCK PUPPET!! he's just trying to squeeze interest out of us, probably has it hooked up to his own account....
hrrmmm what else.... oh.. I love David Tennant, so much.. so so much....LOL, i have watched all 3 series of Dr Who, and im now hooked for life,its killing me inside that i have to wait for the new series to come out.. but will get the christmas special first...and i am also hooked on Torchwood (heheh anogram of Doctor Who)... which is also a great show.. its got Captain Jack Harkness, a former companion of the Doctor, from the 51st Century.. who cant die....(well... thats what happens when you get ressurrected by someone who has looked into the time vortex).. .. but back to david tennant... YUM.!.. and i want to know what happens...Martha Jones, your coming back right??? Im a big fan!!!
still alying in bed... 10:52 am, very lazy and i love it... marc has gone out to borrow my dads ute so we can move out... and he' s just gotten home which means i have to get up and start moving.. arrgghh..
I wish the doctor was real...
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| Monday, July 2nd, 2007
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12:01 pm - think of it as a ball of wibbley wobbley timey wimey stuff.....
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restretched my ears last weekish, the right one is still kinda sore...went up to a 10mm... so i got some nice holes in me head now...tired, been sleeping toooooooo much...and its windy as fuckery latley.. windy and wet... I think the weather is trying to train us for blackpool... from what i have heard it is wet wet wet and windy windy windy... with a bit of hot hot hot in the summer and cold cold cold in the winter... ooer...
I have watched pretty much all of the new series of Dr who... from Martha Jones's entry.. just got 2 more eps to download then ive had the whole series... Im so addicted.. and ooer.. captain jack harkness...Torchwood....an offshoot of dr who i know... annnnnd I love it.thats on tonight toooo.. YAY..i love the new dr...he's soo cheeky..and nerdy...and sexy all in one... YAY for the DR.
packing up the house slowly slowly....getting excited now....I have been told there is a dr who museum in blackpool....Im going..!! LOL
I love it when he's all nerdy...
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| Friday, June 29th, 2007
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4:29 pm
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bold and the beautiful is on.. ooer... im so pathetic LOL
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4:28 pm
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.. cut toe... but having sushi for dinner.... not an entirely fair compromise...but never the less tastey...
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4:26 pm
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i just cut my fucking toe on the metal feet of the fan... blood is pissin out everywhere from my poor little pinky toe.. NOT HAPPY JAN!!!
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| Sunday, June 17th, 2007
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8:02 pm - pissed off flu ridden stress filled meow
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i have a god damn head cold.. i hate it soooooo much, i feel like shit, I have to do about 2 hours worth of walking tomorrow to the post office and back to post marcs application for his UK settlement visa.. and try not to stress out about not only sending official original documents in the post but also, although i know we meet the criteria, worry and stress about it being granted.... i want this all to go off without a hitch... please jeebus please...
the hotel is booked, the coach from london to blackpool is booked, the airtickets are paid for.. just waiting on this visa and the house money to come through...while i quietly die of this damn flu, and mope round the house....
did i spell it right?
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| Thursday, June 14th, 2007
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1:56 pm - arrrgggghhhhh
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my screams get lost in a paper cup...do you think theres a heaven where the screams have gone....
well fucken fuckedy fuck fuck fuck crap stick cunt fuck shit bastard crap....fishsticks
that is all...
no really... yesterday my heart got broken then semi mended in the evening....
the house sale fell through,,,, my heart broke.. shattered.. looked up at the sky and said.. "ok i yield".....i cried so hard.. i dontt hink i have ever cried like that... but i cried my soul out...and i think i realised, my mum realised... for the first time how much this all meant to me... my god i cried, and quietly shook my head in disbelief... cry cry cry
the real estate agents ... worked furiously into the evening.. doin their sums, doin their figures... ringsing everyone they could think of to sell this house.... and a woman from the office came through , loved it and put an offer on it straight away... but i said.. before i sign the papers i wanna know that she has finance.. so i have waited till today to find out that the broker says its 100% kosher and we signed the papers....
but i still feel very out of sorts... my head feels terrible and my eyes still feel swollen and puffy from yesterdays emotional exploits...
and all i can do from now on is look up and say "I YIELD FUCKER I YIELD..IM TIRED OF THIS"
current music: silence
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| Thursday, June 7th, 2007
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7:12 pm - well it looks like my prayers have been answered
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Ok, so today we got a guy come throught the house and make an offer in which we accepted, the papers are to be drawn up tomorrow, but until the little scribblings are put down on paper i cant get too excited and say that the house is sold BUT...
THE HOUSE IS SOLD AND ILL BE IN THE UK IN 6-8 WEEKS TAKING UP MY RIGHTFUL POSITION AS TATTOO APPRENTICE...... HOLY FUCK YEAH I AM HAPPIER THAN A PIG IN SHIT!!!!
I cannot express to anyone who doesnt know what his means to me how extremely and gloriously happy I am right now, the new boss has sent me a shit tonne of PDF's to familiarise myself with before i get there, cos as he says .. he wants me to be able to hit the floor running, and get inking as soon as possible, Im so pleased things have worked out cos i was a mess there for a while...
But this is the BIGGEST thing i have ever wanted, and the only thing i havent had to fight for... he saw my art, my potential, and wants ME,.,, yes ME,,,, so much so that it has come to my attention that he has already turned away 2 potential apprentices so that I can work for him,,, YAY
Ok im off to roll around in all my glory... and probably dance round the house naked..lol
ps... i have lost 20lbs to boot.. so im a little ball of happy all round.
current mood:  ecstatic
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| Friday, June 1st, 2007
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10:42 pm - home open tomorrow...12-1pm...
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well we have a home open tomorrow... I have a good feeling about this weekend.. dunno why.. maybe its wishful thinking... maybe its gas.. hell it could be gas...but there are a few people supposedly wanting to come through for a look so i have everything crossable crossed.... please please please buy my house... I wanna get on my way to inking people .. yes thats right inking ...no im not turning into a giant squid.. although some would think that cool.. but my well offered apprenticeship as an inkslinger awaits in the uk and im dying to get there and get started.. im hanging out to drink beer at ye olde worlde pubs.. and be surrounded by a different culture, a different accent.. a different set of seasons... OH the JOY...im so hanging out for this opportunity... i dunno wether to pray, to burp or what...it still might be gas..
peace out homies LOL
C
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| Monday, May 28th, 2007
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6:50 pm
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ANyone want to buy a House in Western australia and help me on my way to getting my tattoo apprenticeship??? Just a thought LOL...
I have been offered a tattoo apprenticship in the UK.. but the boss wants me to start in AUgust and the house hasnt sold yet... so obviously i cant afford to move over there just yet... but i dont want to miss this opportunity so im between crying and pulling my hair out with unknowing frustration at the moment,,, so if you wanna buy a house in western australia, or know someone who does, check this site out and buy mine PLEASE....lol...
http://www.ljhooker.com.au/property_listing.php?id=1676645&type=residential&category=buy
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| Friday, October 13th, 2006
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